November 30, 2007


Posted in Uncategorized at 6:19 pm by bitsypieces

I’ve never had a sweet tooth.  Instead, I’ve always preferred salty snacks–popcorn, pretzels, corn chips.  But since I’ve been pregnant, I’ve noticed that I’m eating a lot more sugar.

For one thing, I’m sucking on sour hard candies, which are supposed to help with nausea (they do… a bit).  For another, I’m eating soy dream (ice cream) sandwiches every night.  And finally, I’m trying to eat more fruit (like oranges, prunes and apples) for the nutrients and benefits.  I’m also eating more processed foods than usual.

So I’m probably eating 10 times more sugar that normal.  I hate eating all this sugar!   It really makes me feel sluggish, and it’s no wonder I crash when I get tired.

Also, I’m starting to worry about gestational diabetes.

So I’m going to commit–right now!–to less sugar.  Last night at the supermarket I purchased a cereal with low sugar, and today I’m going to try and skip all the extra sugary treats.


November 26, 2007


Posted in Uncategorized at 9:56 pm by bitsypieces

Took a walk today–my first exercise in weeks–and was amazed at the energy I felt after the walk was finished. I know the importance of exercise… but it’s always interesting to really feel the results.

I have to make a commitment to get regular exercise throughout this pregnancy. There are a lot of reasons to stay active, including:

  1. Avoid excessive weight gain.
  2. Be fit for labor.
  3. Have more energy throughout pregnancy.
  4. Be better prepared to lose the “baby weight.”

I’m going to strive for walking 30-45 minutes at least 4 days a week… preferably 6. I probably won’t do any other type of exercise–no strength training or hard stretching–but at least I’ll be doing something! Lately I’ve just been like a bump on a log… or, rather, a bump on the couch. It’s no wonder I’ve been feeling lethargic.

November 25, 2007


Posted in Uncategorized at 7:48 pm by bitsypieces

I am constantly worrying.

I worry about miscarriage.  About stillbirths.  About chromosomal abnormalities.  I worry about labor.  I worry about delivery.  I worry about finding enough space in our house.

I’m a worrywart by nature, but all this worrying is starting to drive me crazy!  I know I just need to give it all up to God and put it in His hands… but I’m having a hard time letting go of my worry.

November 23, 2007

Pregnant Dreams

Posted in Uncategorized at 4:55 pm by bitsypieces

Of all the things I had to give up because I’m pregnant, the three I miss most are:

  1. Wine
  2. Caffeine
  3. Sushi

Last night I dreamed that I drank a glass of wine.  I felt horribly guilty while I drank it, but I wanted it so bad!  The dream was probably a manifestation of my own desires and anxiety.

Ah, well.  Giving up wine is a small price to pay for a healthy child.

November 20, 2007


Posted in Uncategorized at 12:20 am by bitsypieces

Had my ultrasound today.  The tech said I am probably 6 weeks and 4-5 days pregnant… which coincides with around the time I thought I ovulated (give or take a few days).

We got a picture printed, but you can’t see a thing except a little blob.  The really cool thing was hearing the heartbeat.  I felt really thrilled to hear that little whoosh whoosh sound.  It’s hard to explain the way I felt.  I said, “Wow.  That’s totally messed up.”

I felt happy and weird at the same time.

November 17, 2007

Am I crazy?

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:37 pm by bitsypieces

Part of me can’t help but wonder if some of this stuff is all in my head.  I totally want to experience pregnancy symptoms, because that means my hormones are pumping out strong.  (Some women who have miscarried say that the first sign was their symptoms fading.)

But pregnancy symptoms are so subjective.  Am I imagining them because I want them so badly, or are they really there?  Here have been my biggies so far:

1.  Sore boobs:  My boobs are always tender, but sometimes to a greater degree than others.  Sometimes they just hang around and hurt, other times they only feel tender if I push on them.

2.   Queasiness:  This comes and goes so much that I’m not even sure if it’s there!  It could be all in my imagination, although I don’t think so.  And I notice that I tend to get queasy whenever my boobs are super sore (maybe a hormone surge?).  Still… I wish my “morning sickness” was more definitive and less “could be my imagination.”

3.  Fatigue:   I’m taking a 15-30 minute nap almost every day, which is highly unusual for me.  But, again, fatigue is one of those things that could just be “all in my head.”  Maybe I’m just lazy…

That’s about it.  No other symptoms.  I kind of wish I had something more definite… more measurable.  I just want a healthy, safe pregnancy and a healthy baby.   I keep feeling like I’ll be more secure after the ultrasound, but I doubt it.  I’m such a worrywart.

November 15, 2007

Ultrasound Scheduled

Posted in Uncategorized at 8:09 pm by bitsypieces

So my first ultrasound is scheduled for Monday.  I’m pretty excited about it.  I know we won’t be able to see much–just measure the baby to see how far along I really am.  But an ultrasound will ease my worries a bit.  I’ll know for certain that:

  1. I’m actually carrying a baby, and not just an egg sac or something else like that.
  2. The baby is alive (I’m guessing they’ll be able to hear the heartbeat at that point).
  3. It’s not ectopic.

According to my midwife, I should be at the start of my 8 weeks at the time of my ultrasound.  And she said that the risk of miscarriage drops to 5% if they hear the heartbeat at 8 weeks.  So I am hoping and praying that everything is fine and we hear a nice strong heartbeat on Monday.  If so, I’ll feel a lot better and less worried (I hope).

November 14, 2007

First appointment

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:12 pm by bitsypieces

Met with the midwife today… my first appointment.  It actually made me more nervous that anything.  I was hoping it would calm my nerves.  But I guess I’m just a worrywart.

The midwife was great.  She’s actually a woman I know from my church.  I didn’t know it was her until I met her today, because I’d only been told her first name (wouldn’t have recognized her married name anyway).

All in all, I am just a big bundle of nerves.  Crazy, huh?  I kind of just want to sleep until it’s all over.

November 13, 2007

Where’s the sickness?

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:03 pm by bitsypieces

No more spotting, and very little cramping these days.  That makes me feel a bit better about everything.

But now I’m wondering: Where’s the morning sickness everyone keeps talking about?

Rumor has it that morning sickness is a good thing, since it shows your body is pumping out plenty of hormones to keep the pregnancy viable.  I, however, have been feeling pretty ok so far.

The last two nights or so, my tummy has been a bit upset.  It’s not really nausea or queasiness… I equate it to the feeling I get when I read in the car.  Definite tummy upset, but not like I’m going to vomit or anything.  Just an overall feeling of ickiness.

I’ve always had an iron stomach, and I was pretty sure that morning sickness would pass me by if I ever got pregnant.

But now I’m wondering if there’s something wrong with me.  Shouldn’t I have my head in a toilet at this point?

November 10, 2007

More worries

Posted in Uncategorized at 5:25 pm by bitsypieces

So last night I had a little bit of brown spotting.  And today I’ve got some sharp pains in my left side.

This, of course, leads me to start worrying.  And worrying.  And worrying some more.

I’ve got a few freelance writing assignments due next week.  I’m going to try and finish them today.  That way, if something horrible does happen (God forbid!), I won’t have to worry about working while I’m wallowing in my grief.

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